To Live and Die in LA

I can't afford to live here. I just can't. I should have stayed in Atlanta, moved in with boyfriend, and spent my nights getting blackout drunk with my friends. Every time I look at the price of studio apartments, my eyes water up. 900.00 is a ridicul0us amount to pay for 400 sq ft.

Maybe I am whining. Probably. I don't know anyone to live with. I can't move out of the Valley...I have to be close for school...I don't have a lot of money...I have nowhere to go...I'm living with awful people...My life is one big jumbled mess of problems...I haven't done my laundry for a month because I never have any quarters on me...That is beside the point...I had to be different...I had to get out...Now I have to go back...Thank god the year is almost over...I put too much pressure on myself...I can't use BBM...I can't afford to have the internet turned back on for my BlackBerry...I'm spending my Friday night alone watching Spongebob and listening to old Cat Power...I wish I had my drum set here...It was my best friend and my emotional release...I saw a small acoustic guitar at Target for 56.00 and seriously considered buying it...I tried to learn guitar twice and both times I never got past three chords...Most songs are just three chords though...I wanna start a band and then have my drums Fed-Exed to me...I fucked up my job interview on Wednesday...I guess I have to start over...My roommate told me she didn't have any respect for me this morning...Everything that has happened to me before tonight has turned into a fuzzy memory...I just want to live somewhere else and buy up every 1.00 Saint candle at Wal-Mart...

"Time passes slow. The minutes stand still. Don't want to look, but know that I will. I hate the moon, when the night has hurt you so bad, that it's killed every day that you have, and it's left your heart heavy and somber."
- the Chapin Sisters, "I Hate the Moon"

Deuces,
Erika

You Think You Know Everything!

Home Movies is one of my favorite cartoons. It's just behind Harvey Birdman, Scooby Doo, Sealab 2021, and Mission Hill. This show is O.G. I didn't know Mitch Hedburg guest starred on it back in the day. Until about last year, I didn't know Mitch Hedburg was dead.

You're probably thinking, "Why is she posting this uselessness after all of the prolific and insightful thoughts she's spilled in previous posts?" Well, because over here, back at the ranch, at home base, etc, so much shit is burying me right now that if I don't focus on the things that require no thought, I'll go insane. Sometimes you gotta laugh not to cry, right?



Deuces,
Erika

Isaac Hayes, RIP

What the fuck is going on? Bernie Mac, Isaac Hayes, George Carlin, Estelle Getty...is God just getting jealous because there are so many angels on earth? What about South Park? I mean, this is ridiculous. Is the apocalypse really coming sooner than we think? I'm going to go brush up on the book of Revelations now...

Deuces,
Erika